婆婆走了。。

I still remember what was her last words to me before I left her room that afternoon. "记得要喝多多水哈“ I answered O, byebye! and left the room. From that time onwards, I never hear her talking again except the moaning sound which came out from her.

My uncles aunties always say that among all the grandchildren, Popo zui sayang wo. But I never really ponder about that. Popo bought most expensive watch for me compared to my sis, bought gold chain and gold anklet for me. When i need a pair of glasses, she insist that I take the money to get one. When I come back from KL, she will buy CRABS for me..a lot of them cos she knows I love to eat crabs. She will buy my favorite foods and ask me to come home to eat. When I need to return to KL, she would give me some pocket money. Knowing that I will need a huge amount of money to U.S.A, she gave me her savings which she can use for her medication. She bought me a lot of stuff, gave me a lot of stuff, nag me on a lot of stuff. She cared so much about me..but how much have I ever cared about her? Her sacrifice for me can never be payed back.

I prayed to God so that Popo will come back and reveal herself to me in my dreams to tell me her last words..or I tell her my last words. I really wish that would happen. I wanna dream of Popo in her white robes and a pretty halo above her head, smiling to me and telling me that she will always be watching me. I wanna dream of Popo giving me lots and lotsa advice again and this time I will tell her not to worry and will guai guai obey her. I wanna dream of Popo able to talk to me again and her old saggy face becomes beautiful again. I wanna know that Popo has already found her way to heaven and is enjoying her huge feast with other angels now. By then, popo will not face any pain because Jesus said, " “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” Revelation 21.

If I get to talk to Popo, I wanna promise her that I will study really hard here so all what she had given me will not be wasted. I wanna make you proud, Popo as you always have. Rest in peace my beloved one. Watch over me :)